He Said He Loved Me When He Forgot Me
Chapter 1

Four years ago, I pulled a man with no memory out of the freezing sea. I took him back to my motor inn and named him Jay. He carried himself with effortless grace, and he spoke fluent French. The lobstermen on the peninsula warned me: “He isn't one of us. Don't go falling for him.” I asked him whether he would leave me once his memory came back. He stroked my hair and said, gently: “Everything I want is in this inn. All of it is in you. I will never leave.” Then, one day, six black SUVs came up the drive. Standing in the hallway, I heard a bodyguard address him with deference: “The board has voted unanimously for your return.” Jadon Phillips — the true heir to the Phillips Global Properties empire — did not even lift his eyes as he gave the order: “Give her ten million. Make sure she doesn't go out and make a scene.” So he had never really lost his memory. To keep me from disrupting his engagement to a shipping heiress, he handed me over to Arthur Garner — a widowed, small-time coastal freight operator on the brink of bankruptcy. When I refused outright and tried to run, he let his bodyguards drag me across the docks. But he never knew I was already carrying his child. Not until I lay in a pool of blood, watching our unborn baby slip away, did he try to hold me back. I left his millions on the table and got on a plane to Seattle with sixty dollars in my pocket, and I swore I would build a business empire of my own with my own two hands. Chapter 1 Gianna's POV: The sea off Maine never forgives a mistake. I learned that as a child — the year my parents took the lobster boat out and never came back. On an October morning four years ago, the tide pushed a man onto the rocks behind the Anchorage Motor Inn. There was a bullet wound low in his left side, packed with salt and grit. His coat was soaked dark red, and the pulse at his cold jaw was so faint I could barely find it. I dragged him up the gravel path by myself. I fetched the retired doctor who lived at the end of the road, and he stitched the wound shut on my kitchen table without asking a single question. When the man woke five days later, his gray eyes were blank. He didn't remember his parents. He didn't remember where home was. He didn't even remember his own name. I pointed at the Atlantic outside the window and called him Jay. Jay stayed. He learned to patch plaster walls and replace copper pipes split by frost, and he learned to keep the inn's books through the dead, lean winters. Hands that had never so much as touched a wrench grew rough with calluses. And yet something in him never fit this shut-in little town. He moved with an easy, polished grace, and he spoke fluent French. More than that: when a local developer tried to muscle in and seize the fishermen's moorings, Jay drafted a countermeasure, and in under forty-eight hours the developer's lawyers withdrew by the weekend, briefcases and all. Six months later that developer's law firm in Bangor received a letter of inquiry from a state's attorney in New York, asking who had prepared the filing. Jay took the truck and was gone for two days. When he came back he said only that he had been to look at a boat. After that he stopped going into town on the days the mail came. People in town decided he was a Wall Street shark on the run. His past was not my business. The second year after he healed, out on the wooden dock behind the inn, he bent a length of silver wire into a ring and slipped it onto my finger. “I don't want anything the outside world could offer, Gianna,” he said, pulling my wool coat tighter against the bitter northeast wind. “Everything I want is in this inn. All of it is in you. I will never leave.” I believed him. Then, one Tuesday afternoon, the dream shattered. A convoy of six black SUVs ground up the gravel drive and crushed the wooden flower boxes I had painted myself that spring. Men in charcoal suits and earpieces spilled out and ringed the lobby. A tall blonde stepped down from the lead car in a white cashmere coat and black sunglasses. She was Bianca Owens, daughter of a Manhattan shipping magnate, and she had flown into Hancock County two days ahead of the convoy. The Owens family trust held enough preferred stock to guarantee her a seat at any table the Phillips family set, and she never let anyone forget it. Jadon's mother had picked her out for him years ago, before either of them had a vote; the engagement was to be announced at the autumn gala, and Bianca had already begun saying “our house” when she meant his. She had found him the way money always finds people: she bought the file. A clerk at the Bangor firm that had answered the state's attorney's letter sold her a photocopy of the retainer for twelve thousand dollars, and a private investigator counted the miles from there. It took him eleven days. I was in the laundry room folding towels for the guests when I heard low voices coming from the office. I went down the hall and stopped outside the scuffed wooden door, which stood ajar. Jay stood behind my desk, but his posture had changed entirely. His back was straight, his chin slightly lifted; the mild, gentle manner of four years was gone. A bodyguard was reporting in a lowered voice: “The board has voted unanimously for your return. They didn't even bother with a formal vote.” Jay's voice was cold and edged with menace. “They thought they could liquidate the Boston assets. I've taken back fifty-one percent of the voting stock. The hostile takeover is finished.” I stood against the plaster wall with my hand over my mouth and my heart going like a bird. Bianca stood across from him, studying her manicured nails at her leisure. “And what about the innkeeper, Jadon?” A sour, cutting smile curled at the corner of her mouth. “You can't bring some girl you picked up on a beach to the charity gala next month. That's the night they announce our engagement. If your mother sees her standing beside you when the toast is made, she'll have a heart attack on the spot, and your sister will be only too glad to let it happen.” Jadon didn't hesitate for half a second. “It's handled,” he said, in the light, casual tone of a man scheduling trash pickup. “I had legal set up a ten-million-dollar trust. For a woman of her background, that's enough to live off for several lifetimes. Besides, Arthur Garner needs a docile wife to keep his house, and his coastal cold-chain freight routes happen to be the choke point on our East Coast line. We hold his notes now. That company won't last the spring.” He paused, then went on: “Rather than swallow Garner Freight whole and spend two years in court with the union and the local gentry in Bangor, I'll hand him a quiet, obedient wife, and use the marriage to dangle a line of commercial credit in front of him, so he keeps sailing for us. Her future is settled, and our shipping lane is in hand. Two birds.” “A trust with a marriage clause in it,” Bianca said, and laughed. “That's the coldest thing I've ever heard you say.” “Legal built it that way on purpose.” Jadon tapped one finger on the desk, twice, the way he did when he had already decided something. “The trust pays out only to a married beneficiary. If she is still unmarried at forty, the principal reverts to the Foundation and she keeps nothing but the annual stipend. Married, the money stays on a leash. Arthur needs a wife, the trust needs a husband, and I need the shipping lane. Nobody in this room is being romantic about it.” My phone was in my apron pocket. My thumb found the record button before I had decided anything, and the little red dot came on and stayed on. A wave of nausea rose up in me. My stomach turned — not only from the blow, but because of the new life quietly growing inside me. Two days ago, in a clinic in Ellsworth, a nurse had confirmed what I had already guessed and had not yet said out loud to anyone. I gripped the door frame until my knuckles went white. Four years. He had known his own name for four years, and he had let me call him Jay. He had never lost it. He had only ever lent it to me. While his family tore itself apart over billions, he had been lying safe in my bed, waiting for them to come and fetch him. I got my hand around the phone, held it against my hip, and shoved the door open. The hinge shrieked and split the silence. Jadon turned. Our eyes met, and there was no panic in his, no flicker of guilt. He simply put his phone away and slid a thick blue leather folder across the scarred oak desk. “So you heard.” His voice was flat. “Ten million dollars,” I said, fighting to keep control and failing; my voice shook. “And Arthur Garner.” “Arthur is a respectable man with a name, Gianna,” Jadon said, taking a step toward me. “Garner Freight has run out of Bangor for thirty years. Nobody on the docks does business without tipping their hat to the Garners. He's short on cash right now, but once your trust is injected, that little difficulty amounts to nothing. You'll never have to break your back running this inn again. The trust pays you three hundred thousand a year. For you, that's the best ending there is.” “The best ending?” I repeated numbly, looking down at the wire ring on my left hand. “And what about the man who swore he'd never leave this dock? Is he dead?” Jadon glanced down at the ring, then lifted his eyes to mine. He looked at me the way a man looks at a line item. “Jay was a stopgap,” he said, and every word struck me like a slap. “Jay had no money, no power, no future. I am Jadon Phillips. My life belongs to the Phillips Group board, not to a five-room motor inn in Maine. Wake up, Gianna. Sign the agreement, marry Arthur, and go live a comfortable life.” I ripped the wire ring off my finger. I walked to the desk and slammed it down in the middle of the blue folder. “I don't want your ten million,” I said, staring straight into his eyes. “And I will never marry Arthur Garner.” Jadon looked at the twisted wire and shook his head, almost imperceptibly. “Keep it or throw it away, I don't care, Gianna,” he said, turning to pick up his coat. “Legal will handle the paperwork. The wedding is Friday, at the Garner place. Don't make this harder on yourself than it has to be.” “Get out of my office,” I said. In the corner, Bianca laughed out loud with contempt. “Look at the little innkeeper,” she said, coming to stand beside Jadon, her voice thick with disdain. “She actually thinks she has a choice. Jadon, your car is waiting. Leave the rest of the trash for the cleaners.” I walked to the door, threw it wide open, and pointed outside. “The two of you,” I said, my voice low and flat, “get out. Now.” Jadon paused on the threshold. He looked at me for one brief second, as if searching my face for something familiar, then strode out across the gravel without looking back. Bianca followed, and made a point of ramming her shoulder into mine as she passed. “Poor thing, you were just a roof he sheltered under during a storm,” she murmured at my ear. “Don't flatter yourself that you were ever his destination.” I slammed the door and shot the bolt. My legs gave out and I slid down the door, curling up with my knees against my chest. My hands trembled as they came to rest on my belly. The room smelled of salt and pine, and now of the expensive cologne Jadon wore — a scent that had never belonged here. Outside, heavy car doors slammed one after another. Through the window I watched Jadon take a gold lighter from his pocket and light a dark cigar — in four years I had never once seen him smoke. The Jay I knew hated the smell of tobacco. The man outside exhaled a thick cloud into the gray coastal sky, utterly indifferent to the wreckage he was leaving behind. Bianca stood beside him, pointing toward the highway and talking fast. Jadon nodded to his head of security — a broad, close-cropped man. “Make sure the Garners have everything ready by Friday,” Jadon's voice carried cleanly through the thin glass. “Once she sees there's nowhere to run, she'll come around.” Engines roared, the convoy swept off along the coast, and the dust it raised settled over my dying hydrangeas. I picked the blue folder up off the desk. I opened it, and line after line of fine print swam before me. The ten million came with brutal conditions: never speak a word to the press for the rest of my life; never set foot in New York or Boston again; my legal residence bound to Arthur Garner's old house for ten full years, with the annual stipend stopping the day the marriage did — a house that, along with Garner Freight's warehouse and refrigerated trucks, had long since been mortgaged to the Phillips Group. If I broke a single clause, the entire sum would revert to the Phillips Foundation, and I would owe a ruinous penalty. This was no gift. It was a prison sentence, paid out in installments. Then there was a sharp knock at the front door. I looked through the peephole. Standing on the porch was Arthur Garner, in a bright yellow raincoat.

Chapter 2

Gianna's POV: Arthur Garner was holding a paper bag from the local bakery in one hand and a red velvet box in the other. When I unlocked the door, he took off his sodden hat. He looked exhausted, his weathered face carrying every one of his fifty-five years. “Gianna,” Arthur said, his tone flat and hesitant. “Can I come in for five minutes?” “No,” I said, my hand still braced against the door. “Whatever Jadon told you, Arthur, it's not happening.” Arthur sighed and pushed the door open just wide enough to squeeze his shoulder through into the drafty entryway. He set the red velvet box on the reception desk. “Jadon Phillips called my office at six this morning,” Arthur said, staring down at his badly worn boots. “He's bought the mortgage on my freight company. The debt on my three refrigerated trucks is in his hands now too. If I don't sign the marriage certificate by Friday, he'll declare me in default first thing Monday morning and take the trucks.” I stared hard at him, aware of the cold air seeping in around the door. “So you agreed to buy me, to save your trucks?” I demanded. Arthur's face colored with shame, but his jaw stayed set. “Gianna, I've got twenty-four local men on my payroll who feed their families on those wages,” Arthur said in his own defense. “My daughter starts college this fall. I buried my wife two years ago and I am still paying the hospital for it. At my age, I can't afford to go bankrupt. I can't start over. Jadon's offer is three hundred thousand in commercial credit the moment the license is signed. He says it gives you a home, and it gives me a wife.” “I'm not a piece of coastal real estate, Arthur,” I said, my voice rising. “I'm twenty-eight. You're older than my father was when he died.” “I won't mistreat you,” Arthur said, stepping closer. “You can have the guest wing. Live your own life. But the wedding has to happen. Phillips doesn't leave a man room to bargain, and you know his temper.” “The man I knew was called Jay,” I said, my chest tightening. “I don't know this monster who bought your debts.” Arthur reached for my arm; I flung his hand off. “Gianna, be sensible,” Arthur pleaded. “You're holding on to a failing motor inn that barely breaks even in summer. Winter's coming. What are you going to heat it with? Take the trust. Live quietly. It's the best offer you'll ever get.” “Get out,” I said, snatching up the red velvet box and hurling it out onto the gravel porch. “Take your bread and get off my property, or I'll call Sheriff Miller.” “Miller can't help you,” Arthur said, retreating into the drizzle. “Two hours ago Phillips made a huge donation to the county search-and-rescue fund. The whole town is talking about his generosity. Nobody's going to stand against him for you.” I slammed the door and locked it again. I didn't cry. There was no time to cry. I picked up the blue leather contract, folded it in half, and walked quickly out to my pickup. I drove straight to the harbor. The Phillips Global field office was set up in the coastal yacht club. The guard at the gate tried to stop me, but I drove my rusted Ford straight through the barrier and parked crooked across two spaces marked for executives. I took the stone steps up to the clubhouse at a run. Jadon was standing on the second-floor terrace with four men in bespoke suits around him, and two local selectmen were laughing at something he'd said. He held a crystal tumbler of amber Scotch in his right hand. I walked straight down the corridor and out onto the terrace. The laughter stopped dead. The selectmen took in my mud-caked work boots and faded flannel shirt, then glanced at Jadon in discomfort. Jadon didn't move. He took a slow sip of his drink and set the glass down on the glass-topped rail. “Gianna,” he said, his voice low and composed. “You shouldn't have driven that wreck out here. It's dripping oil all over the club's driveway.” I pulled the thick contract from under my arm and slammed it into his chest. The heavy pages hit his dark silk tie and scattered, fluttering across the polished teak floor. “I will never sign your papers,” I said loudly, loud enough for everyone on the terrace to hear. “And I will never marry Arthur Garner.” Jadon didn't even glance at the pages on the floor. He looked at me with a faint, weary irritation, the way an adult looks at a child throwing a tantrum. “Arthur went to see you,” Jadon stated. “He explained the terms.” “He explained them all right — he said you're blackmailing him with a commercial loan!” I shot back. “You're buying me a husband because you're afraid your society friends will ask why the woman who washed your shirts for four years is still living ten miles from your summer estate!” One of the selectmen cleared his throat and retreated toward the glass doors. Jadon didn't turn his head; he simply raised a hand and dismissed them. “Give us five minutes,” he ordered. They scurried inside like startled mice and slid the glass door shut behind them. Jadon walked toward me until he stood less than two feet away. “You think this is about my reputation, Gianna?” he murmured. “It's about keeping you alive. No education, no family worth the name, no one to turn to, holding on to a motel whose mortgage is worth more than the building. I'm giving you ten million dollars. For someone like you, that's a fortune that will shelter your family for generations.” “Someone like me?” I spat. “The someone who pulled you out of the sea? The someone who pulled sea urchin spines out of your infected back one by one while you screamed in your sleep? The someone who spoon-fed you potato soup for six weeks because the fever had you too weak to hold a spoon?” “And I'm paying you for the soup,” Jadon said coldly. “Call it two and a half million a year in nursing fees. No nurse on this planet has ever been paid so well.” I raised my hand and slapped him. The crack of it rang across the empty terrace like a whip. Jadon's head snapped to the right. He didn't shout. He just turned his face back, slowly. A faint red mark rose on his cheekbone, but his eyes were black, cold flint. “Friday morning at the latest,” Jadon said, his voice calm enough to be frightening. “If you're not standing in the Garner chapel, I'll have your uncle's fishing licenses seized and every living relative you have in this county stripped of their assets. You will marry Arthur, Gianna. Because I believe it's the best thing for you, and because no one has ever said no to me.” I stepped back, putting distance between us. “You're a coward, Jadon Phillips,” I said quietly. “When you were just a man with a bullet in his side, you were more of a man.” I turned, walked quickly down the stairs, started the truck, and drove off without once looking in the mirror.

Chapter 3

Gianna's POV: The sun hadn't even set, and the town was already suffocating me. At the grocery store, Mrs. Higgins wouldn't look me in the eye as she rang up a gallon of whole milk. She muttered under her breath that her nephew had just been hired as a gardener at the Phillips estate, at twenty-five dollars an hour. In less than twelve hours, the whole town had been bought. When I pulled back into the Anchorage Motor Inn, my uncle Clement was sitting on the wooden steps of the front office, smoking a cheap cigarette. Clement was my father's younger brother. Over the past twenty years he had churned through a failed bait shop and a used marine-engine business, chasing a quick fortune and losing every cent. He looked up at me, his watery eyes full of greed. “Gianna, Jadon's lawyer came by my dock this afternoon,” Clement said, tapping ash onto my gravel drive. “Says you've been kicking up a fuss about the Garner arrangement. Making trouble all over town.” “Go home, Clement.” I didn't look at him; I walked straight for the door. “He also told me Phillips wants to buy this lot for a private marina,” Clement said, following me inside. “Says if I can talk you into signing over the deed, there's a finder's fee in it for me. You still owe me fifteen thousand from when your roof caved in three winters back.” I stopped in the middle of the cramped lobby. The neon VACANCY sign in the window hummed faintly. My parents bought this place in 1985. I spent my whole childhood here — painting shutters, polishing pine floors, staring out at the fog rolling in off the bay. Jay and I spent two whole weeks carving a new wooden sign for the drive out of a single slab of driftwood cedar. We cut the letters together, stroke by stroke: ANCHORAGE MOTOR INN — GIANNA & JAY. “You want this inn, don't you, Clement?” I turned on him, my voice cold. Clement froze, his cigarette halfway to his mouth. “What?” “I'll sell you the deed tonight,” I said, my voice without a trace of warmth. “Fifty thousand in cash. You take over the thirty-thousand mortgage still on the bank's books. We drive to the county office now and drop the transfer in the night box.” Raw greed lit up Clement's eyes. To a developer, the lot alone would be worth two hundred thousand. “Fifty?” He squinted at me. “Where am I supposed to find fifty thousand in cash at eight o'clock at night?” “You've got forty thousand from that yacht insurance payout hidden under your floor,” I said flatly. “And ten in the safe at the tackle shop. Cash, now. Otherwise I burn the deed and walk away.” Clement didn't waste another word. He tore out of there like a madman, terrified I'd change my mind before he got back with the money. I went into the little living quarters behind the front desk and pulled a canvas duffel out of the closet. Three wool sweaters, two pairs of jeans, my mother's silver locket, five pairs of warm socks. I took nothing Jay had touched. The flannel shirts he'd worn stayed on their hangers; the wooden seabird he'd carved stayed on the windowsill; the leather tool belt he'd bought with his first paycheck from odd jobs stayed on its hook. At a quarter past nine Clement was back, carrying a battered metal toolbox packed with twenties and hundreds. We signed the transfer papers at the kitchen table under a bare bulb. Clement's hand shook the whole time, sure I'd come to my senses any second and realize how much I was losing. “Girl, you've lost your mind,” Clement muttered. For a moment he only stood there holding the deed, and his voice came out thin and strange. “This was my brother's place. I never had any right to it.” Then he folded it into his pocket and would not look at me. “Jadon would have paid you millions.” “Go take the sign down,” I said, zipping the duffel. “Tonight.” “Why?” “Because no one named Jay ever lived here,” I said. I tossed the toolbox onto the passenger seat of the pickup and walked out the back door. I took out my phone and dialed a number I hadn't called in three years. “Courtney?” I said when she picked up on the fourth ring. “Gianna?” Courtney Walters's voice came through, crisp and competent over the noise of a distant city. “God, Gianna! Why are you calling this late? Is something wrong?” Courtney had been my roommate at Bangor Community College before she moved out west. Now she was the general manager of a luxury boutique hotel downtown Seattle. “I have to leave Maine,” I said calmly. “Can I crash on your couch for a week?” Courtney didn't ask what had happened. She didn't ask why my voice sounded so hollow. “I've got a spare room in my Capitol Hill apartment,” Courtney said at once. “And our night auditor just quit yesterday — you can take the job Monday. How are you getting here?” “Tonight,” I said. “I'll call you when I reach Portland.” I hung up and drove straight to the commercial freight docks north of the bay. I knew Captain Vance. He'd been a friend of my father's, and twice a week he ran an unregistered little freighter between our peninsula and the Canadian border. He carried lumber, machinery, and whatever was in season. And he never checked the passenger list. I parked the pickup behind a row of rusted containers at Pier Four. By then the rain was coming down in oily sheets. Captain Vance stood by the loading ramp of his steel-hulled freighter, checking the lashings on the cargo. “Vance!” I shouted, pulling up my hood. The old man turned, the swinging halogen work light cutting across his weathered face. “Gianna Mercer? What are you doing out here in this storm?” “I need passage, Vance.” I pulled ten hundred-dollar bills off the fold I had taken from the toolbox before I left the inn and pressed them into his hand. “Take me to Saint John. Tonight.” Vance looked at the money, then at the single duffel over my shoulder. “The Phillips family has the bridge on Route One blocked,” Vance said under his breath. “An hour ago Sheriff Miller went to the harbormaster's shed himself. He had your photo. Said you were having some kind of mental breakdown, that you were a danger to yourself, and you weren't to leave the county.” For a moment I could not make my hand let go of the money. Jadon had closed the roads already. “I'm sane, Vance,” I said, leaning in and lowering my voice. “You knew my father. You know I'm not crazy. If I stay here, they'll force me to marry a man I don't want.” Vance stared at me for a full three seconds. He spat a bit of chewing tobacco into the water, looked at the money for a long moment, and took it. “Your father would be ashamed of me,” he said, and jerked his chin at the gangway. “Get down in the engine hold, under the cover plate,” Vance said roughly. “Behind the generator housing. We sail in fifteen minutes.” Before I could set foot on the steel gangway, two blinding high beams ripped through the dark and swept the whole dock. A black Cadillac Escalade plowed through the flooded potholes and screamed to a stop sideways at the mouth of Pier Four. The doors flew open. Jadon came striding down into the downpour. He wasn't even wearing a coat. The wind and rain soaked through his white shirt in seconds, plastering it to his chest. Behind him, two armed bodyguards in tactical jackets stepped onto the wooden pier. “Step away from that boat, Gianna.” Jadon's low command cut clean through the howling wind.

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